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Change of Mind

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I don't like making future plans. Lol. Well, maybe, just maybe, I fear that if I make plans, it won't come true. Now, there goes the problem. FEAR. I know that very same fear, will actually create the very thing that I do not want, which is for my plans not happening! Erase, erase, erase. I honestly like making goals. Planning for the future. Envisioning things, places, events, people, dreams coming true. I like that. I just don't want to talk about it to a lot of people or even to a few, because those goals are actually sacred to me, I want it just between me and God. So I don't talk about it. BUT, I'm changing my mind, because, I just want to share it this time!!! Like I always said, my posts in this blog are only for those who are called to read it, Lol! Anyway, what's the BIG plan? Mmmm, I changed my mind again. Lol! .. Do you really want to know? Lol #justmessingwithyou  NAMASTE. -day 232

No Arrest!

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Funny.  My son, Mimoi, came home from school one day with a sticker on his shirt. I asked him, "What is this?" He told me, "Oh, the policemen came to our class.. but they didn't arrest us!" Lol! Talk about perception at an early age. It may have come from the movies he's watching and maybe, when he hears us say "the policeman is coming" when he is being naughty. He continued sharing his story about dialing 911 during emergencies and the need to buckle their seat belts when riding a school bus. It is nice to hear how excited he is to be in school again and gain new friends in the process. It has been 4 years now since they left Philippines and I know, though not intentional, I have deprived them of being with their grandparents and relatives and what "playing outside" experience really means... But, I know it's all for good.... For as long he lives a life of integrity, respect, courage and responsibility, for sure he...

pure luck or something else?

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I would like to believe that my experiences are simply because of pure luck or coincidences but are they really? I was wanting to eat Goldilocks polvoron, really simple story, lol! I asked my husband about, maybe, asking a friend to buy it for me, since she left to visit her family in the Philippines. Great timing, right? But, decided not to. The next day, guess, what happened? I visited one of the schools, I was assigned to, and was greeted by one of the Filipino teachers working there, out of the blue, she pulled out a plastic bag full of goodies and gave me Goldilocks polvoron!  Did I attract it? Mmm... Here's more: I was so sleepy and decided to sleep but I was afraid somebody might call me, so I turned my cellphone to a silent mode. Just minutes after I went to bed, somebody knocked on the door looking for me! How lucky could I get? If there are no coincidences... then, I guess, with just my THOUGHTS I was able to attract the simple Goldilocks polvoron ...

Minding our minds!

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  "The only way that I will ever be great to myself is not what I do to my body but what I do to my mind." - Ramtha from the documentary "What the bleep do we know". Hey, it's all about infinite possibilities, how powerful our mind is and how our thoughts can become our reality. I remember being scared of just the thought of "infinite possibilities" - since it also equates to anything can happen...AS IN, anything! Just like an ocean full of possibilities, vast, large, powerful.. scary! I know I can just focus on the positive extremes but knowing there is the negative extreme too can be "goosebumps-maker" indeed! Nonetheless, I think cleansing our thoughts of negativity and addiction matter a lot too! Our bodies are basically the manifestation of our very own thoughts. Our bodies may already be telling us something, and we are still not aware of it, until the last-minute... we may already be feeling its effects but have for...

For everything is possible!

So, what if after following "..whatever-your-mind-can-conceive-and-believe, it-will-achieve" mindset and just tried to focus on what we want, STILL the result isn't what we want?  What will we do next.. and how come it didn't work? Well, I've just read THE SECRET by Rhonda Byrne book again, and interestingly, my question, just got answered: Quoting from the book, page 146:  Don't become mesmerized by the pictures that have appeared if they are not what you want. Take responsibility for them, make light of them if you can and let them go. Then think new thoughts of what you want, feel them and be grateful that it is done. Now, here's my point of view: Maybe, just maybe, it didn't happen because for a thing to manifest, it actually needs our emotions in it. The feeling of being happy about it.. the feeling of ecstasy.. because we really want it! .. and another rule of the thumb is never to ever let any negative thoughts come into play. No neg...

Remember her?

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 Remember the 88 years old? http://gemsdaily.blogspot.com/2011/12/not-too-late.html and her reminders? http://gemsdaily.blogspot.com/2012/01/meet-88-year-old.html Not too late... My stories: She's 89 years old - Part 1 She's 89 years old - Part 2 She's 89 years old - Part 3 NAMASTE. -day 223 to 225

She's 89 years old!!! - Part 3

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First thing this morning, I decided to drop by her school, to hopefully sit down with her again, to, maybe, if we could, finish her very first IEP preparation for this year. She wasn't there. Not too late... I was thinking, maybe she was sick or maybe caught up with family issues, but no. She has finally decided to retire, yesterday. Her co-teachers shared how she has been crying the whole time yesterday. I just felt sad for her. I was not sure what she really wants, or maybe, she's just left with no choice. She's old. I  was not sure what to feel. I felt numb. I did feel relieved about the news, about her freed from doing all the computer work at 89, and yet I just suddenly missed her. Deep inside, she actually reminded me of my late grandmother. During my elementary and high school years, I would just visit Mama, I'd watch whatever old Tagalog movie she'd be watching in the television and at 3 o'clock, we'd pray the 3 o'clock habit. We ...

She's 89 years old!!! - Part 2

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So, I asked her, "Why did you come back?" She said, "Maria, there's nothing to do. What will I do?" I said, "Well, enjoy life!, you're 89, it's about time you go and enjoy!" She said, "If I can only go back (to her hometown), but there's just a flood of memories there. All my friends have died. There's nothing left do. Anyway, I love where I am, I enjoy where I am!" I said, "Ok, but you will still do your IEPs.", with a smile. She said, "Never!" and we both laughed. Meet the 88 year old... I love being with her. It was fun just sitting in her classroom as she continues to strive to dominate her students with her smart remarks. She's passionate with what she's doing, no matter how limited, if compared to what a freshman teacher could do. But, she remains, undeterred. She's the teacher, students must follow what she says, would always be her stand. I actually have grown fon...

She's 89 years old!!! - Part 1

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I felt fed up by just thinking of doing IEPs the whole year again, since she has decided to come back to school. She's 89 years old, and even though she blatantly told me that she was thinking of maybe, resigning, she didn't. She was back to school. Not too late... Being with her was a different story though. I like being with her. I like her company. I like sitting in her classroom when we work together. I worked with her last year for the whole year, and this year seemed a different story. I really don't like the idea anymore of her still doing IEPs at her age. It was just too much! .. and since she was being paid to do it, as a Special Ed Teacher, she needed to do what she was paid to do, irregardless of her age, of course. As an IEP Facilitator, I was also doing what I was supposed to be doing -to support her in doing her IEPs, even if it meant the whole year round, to all her case load, and guiding her in every button of every part of every page of the...

My Birth

Dear God , Today, I am just grateful for the wonderful years You've given me. Looking back, it's all good! You continue to amaze me, Lord! Thank You for the many stories of my life. Thank You for the opportunity to learn lessons from it, to share and to inspire in my own way. You've held my hand each night I walk alone in the dark ( Holding Hands story) You've given me a hand to hold my sweaty ones! ( Sweaty Hands story) You've given me life. Thank you Daddy and Mommy ! Thank You for the gift of family, relatives, friends, work and relationships. Thank You for Your compassion, Your faithfulness and Your miracles.   I'll continue to stand by You once more as You share with me the wonders of Your love,  Your omnipotence and Your abundance. Mmmm... I'm claiming all my birthday wishes this year Ok? Lol! ;) With all my heart and soul Lord God, THANK YOU! :)) AMEN. -day 222

The Phone Call

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I could still remember the phone call I received almost two years now. I was driving on the way home when the cell phone rang. I wasn't supposed to pick it up but the number was coming from New Mexico. There was just this feeling that it was from the school I applied just a week ago online. True enough, it was the Assistant Principal in-charge of Special Education calling me. I immediately maneuvered the car to the right to a halt. "Yes Sir, I am still very interested in the position" ( really interested !), I answered when asked if I was still available and interested in the Special Ed position. He said, he will go to the District Office to get my files, I blurted, "Yes Sir, please do that." ( super determined! lol! ) He called me up again the next day ( sign of real interest! right? ) to schedule an online phone interview. I was delighted! I decided to go on a half-day leave ( preparation.. ) since I wasn't sure how long the interview will last,...